Yes I'm a train wreck waiting to happen.. well that was what Sarah Mclachlan was singing.... Maybe I am a train wreck really waiting to happen..

But do I really need someone to pick me up off the tracks? I don't think so... I can do it can't I? It's just hard at the moment, the pain is just to... fresh...

To fall so deep into you
Lose myself completely
In your sweet embrace
All my pains erased

Ahhh.. love.. do i really need to fall in love again to forget what has happened? I'm afraid.. Afraid to fall in love again... I did not say that I wouldn't fall in love anymore but reality is I'm scared as hell just thinking about that...

Sigh... shit happens... and unfortunately, it just hit me on the head...

Now I'm trying to pick myself up and dust myself off..